Greetings once again Beloveds.  I have been thinking of writing for a while and finally feel inspired to share a few stories with you.  Over the last 3 or 4 years I have heard from several intuitives that a book is on the horizon for me.  I like writing when I have a drive and passion behind my work.  I wrote one erotic story years ago as if I could not stop the flow onto the page.  It just had to come out of me. I think it was a good amusing story as well as erotic.  Much of it was taken from my actual experience including my first spontaneous orgasm in the middle of a popular chain restaurant.  That was a surprise!  These days I would not be so surprised, delighted yes…surprised no.

Recently I realized I was waiting to start because I did not have the end of the story.   Since I was going to once again use my life experience to base the work on I thought how funny that is.  I keep waiting to feel complete and accomplished…done.  LOL!    I wonder if even death affords us that kind of completion.  Since it is a bit hard to write a book after I’m dead I think I may try to start with what I have.  Otherwise I will have to be one more channeling spirit from the “other side”. 

This blog is providing me with a small beginning.  I also journal almost daily and have captured my many ups and downs as I stumble along rejoicing and/or bitching as the case may be.  My intention for a book is to let others know how powerfully rewarding and at times difficult or frightening the journey to the heart can be.  I hope to provide a story that opens the heart bringing the reader into the present moment...a place I have visited occasionally.  Maybe that is what I keep waiting for, a firmer foundation in the present moment.  This is a great excuse to keep me from writing but I think I am figuring out my undermining strategy.   

On other fronts, recently I had a client come see me that said he felt stuck.  He hoped working with me and learning some Tantra would open him up.  When I asked him how he described himself he didn’t know how to answer me.   I found this delightful.  He did not see himself as his name, his gender or his profession.  He was truly at a loss and I was very excited for him.  He sounded more unstuck than most folks I know, he just hadn’t seen it yet.  We talked about how one of the ancient roads to Enlightenment is the question, “Who am I? Who is asking that question?”, etc.    Although he did not have a solid definition of himself to entangle him, he did have stress built up from his work life.  Happily by the end of our session he told me he felt completely empty in a good way and deeply at ease.   Through the guided meditation, energy connection and sensual touch we both enjoyed spending time in the present moment.  I encouraged him to return and I watched myself almost clinging to this wonderful and successful session.  I saw my desire rise up to work with him again.  In a flash I was back in the past/future mind game.  I had to laugh at myself.  It is such a pleasure for me when someone comes looking for freedom, looking for a deepening in spirit.  I am happy and comfortable with those who come out of curiosity and/or pleasure alone but those who want to find a deepening in and through themselves really light up my world.  I am feeling gratitude warm my heart as I write this.  Thank You!

Lastly, I want everyone to know I recently found my soul mate.  It’s me.  Who knew?  I am not always the best company but I do have everything in common with me.  :O)   Most of the time I am easy to get along with.  Being polyamorous I’m still looking for friends to share experiences with and to share my life but I am working on developing the primary relationship, a more loving forgiving relationship with me.   

And so it goes for now.  Your thoughts and reactions are always welcome!

Namaste’